A lot of my friends from high school, the few I made in my brief college stint, and a decent amount of my coworkers are graduating around now and getting their undergrads. I’m very happy for them and that they’re achieving their goals. It’s just kind of highlighting how much I screwed up and the slimness of the odds of me ever really getting anywhere. I don’t feel that college would have been a great fit for me these past two years anyway, but it’s just difficult to realize that I have half of a psych degree and am living with my mom, waiting tables to pay off the debt school drove me into in the first place with no real idea of how I’m going to move forward. The only thing that keeps me from totally hating my situation is thinking that even Buffy the Vampire Slayer had to drop out of college.
Was going to get some type of booze tonight.
Came home with green tea.
Not too sure what happened.
Made a deal with myself today that will hopefully help both my health and wallet.
If I go the next week without any fast food (including deli food), I’ll allow myself to spend up to $20 at Simple Strands (the local metaphysical store). It’ll still work out cheaper than eating even one meal of fast food a day, which is about what I’ve been averaging. And I get to avoid all that disgusting grease.
I think this’ll work.
Watched pretty much the last half of Buffy season 3 all day.
Successful day off?
I’m gonna go with… eh, kinda.
I mean, it was awesome, but I sorta bailed on my to-do list about half an hour after waking up.
Got hit with a massive wave of inspiration just now.
Do you have any idea how much I want to stay home and write today?
But no.
I have to have a job. And responsibilities.
Ugh.
Just hit 25,000 words in my novel!
Also, used two women’s restrooms today, one crowded as fuck.
Didn’t get called out once.
Just got back from the Lindsey Stirling concert in Atlanta with my sister. I’m going to try to break this down as best I can.
First off, the place was pretty sweet. It was at the Masquerade, which I guess used to be this steel mine or whatever back in the day, but’s been converted into a three stage concert venue. Pretty cool.
The concert itself was incredible. The energy in the room from the crowd and the performers was, well, I can still feel it. The openers were pretty awesome, even helping out when someone passed out in the middle of the crowd. But Lindsey was, well, Lindsey.
The music was incredible. I basically didn’t stop smiling the entire night. And I don’t think I’ve ever participated in a concert like I did tonight. Lindsey was such a sweetheart, too. Pretty much everything she said was incredibly inspirational and touching. A few of the songs had me seriously in tears. I’m pretty sure the people around me were a little weirded out. Whateves.
Just being 25 feet from someone whose music and message means so much to me was insane. She wasn’t just some dot on a stage a quarter mile away, she was right there, human-shaped and rockin’ the eff out. Completely worth standing in the freezing wind for 45 minutes. I haven’t really had much in the way of idols and heroes to look up to, but I think she’s made the list.
So, yeah. She played, I screamed myself hoarse, she came back for an encore, I screamed some more, I blew about $100 on merch, the end.
Looking for a new doctor to renew my prescription. Found a promising looking clinic covered by my insurance. Their website promised me I could email them. Apparently I need an account on their site to do so. And there’s no ‘create account’ button. So now I’m forced to call them. Do you have any idea how much I hate calling people for stuff like this? Gr. Argh.
